The persistence of workplace inequality requires female subjects to examine their place in exploitative systems of production and consumption, and to identify means for emancipation beyond masculine dominant orders. In this paper we examine our past experiences as young women in the finance and oil industries, the phallocentric and extractive engines of global capitalism. We do this by employing a duo-ethnographic approach and a feminist reading of Jacques Lacan’s ideas on sexual difference, aiming to contribute to the literature on female identification in phallocentric organizations. Our analysis reveals how we oscillated between accepting subordinate feminine subject positions linked to emotional work and striving to access ‘universal’ masculine subject positions linked to success and achievement. At the same time, we both engaged with imaginaries of uniqueness and critique, control and success in order to keep functioning in our roles. Both our stories feature moments of rupture experienced as affective embodied responses, when our organizations placed ourselves or others at risk. We analyse these as moments when cracks were exposed in our fantasmatic survival strategies, leading to our eventual exit from these industries. We conclude that while a feminist Lacanian framework provides a useful lens for understanding processes of female identification in phallocentric organizations, the quest for female desire and subjectivity outside the masculine dominant order requires other (feminist) frameworks.

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男性生殖器中心产业中的女性欲望：双重民族志审讯

工作场所不平等的持续存在要求女性主体审视自己在生产和消费的剥削体系中的地位，并找出超越男性主导秩序的解放手段。在本文中，我们回顾了我们作为年轻女性在金融和石油行业的经历，这些行业是全球资本主义的男性中心和榨取引擎。我们通过采用双民族志方法和对雅克·拉康关于性别差异的思想的女权主义解读来做到这一点，旨在为阳具中心组织中的女性认同文献做出贡献。我们的分析揭示了我们如何在接受与情感工作相关的从属女性主体地位和努力获得与成功和成就相关的“普遍”男性主体地位之间摇摆。与此同时，我们都沉浸在对独特性、批判、控制和成功的想象中，以便继续履行我们的角色。当我们的组织将自己或他人置于危险之中时，我们的两个故事都以情感体现反应的形式呈现破裂时刻。我们将这些视为我们幻想的生存策略中暴露出裂缝的时刻，导致我们最终退出这些行业。我们的结论是，虽然女权主义拉康框架为理解男性中心组织中女性认同的过程提供了有用的视角，但在男性主导秩序之外寻求女性欲望和主体性需要其他（女权主义）框架。